Spring

may not have sprung yet, or at least not here, but the days are getting longer and the air is warming up. The snow banks are going down too. All of this has helped improve my mood a lot.
Of course the seasonal changes are effecting the pets too. Our cat Dragon, has been displaying loads of energy lately. Of course his antics have resulted in a certain amount of  destruction. The poor dog can't relax for fear of the cat knocking stuff onto her. It reminds me of when they were young and they would chase each other around the house. I hope things settle soon before someone gets hurt.

 

Down

Maybe the grey weather has something to do with it.
Maybe I'm just due for a break.
I'm feeling disconnected.

Haven't spoken to my best friend in weeks (she lives far away). When I did catch her at home she was just welcoming visitors so we couldn't talk.
My local friends are in a different place in their lives (new jobs, young children etc.) and we don't spend time together very often.
There is drama going on that is affecting work but no one tells me anything because they assume I'm hearing things from "the other side". Or they're making assumptions about my allegiances, which I don't have because I don't know what is going on. (nothing worse than having a conversation with someone who assumes you have the details when you don't even have the broad outline)
I have no idea what's happening with the library expansion, partially because I'm not often around when the boss is around. (Really makes me feel out of the loop)

My youngest son is making all these plans for grad, but I'm not sure he's going to get through the courses.

I have all these feelings sitting in a pit in my stomach but no way to deal with them. I need to get them out or at least find a way to deal with the stress.

To Overcome

Thoughts with the people of Japan, Libya and other areas of danger today.

I Want

...something. I've been filled with that naggy feeling lately that I've forgotten something and I have a sneaking suspicion that it might be me.

I know I've been feeling burnt out mentally. I know I haven't been getting enough sleep or exercise. I know there are some upcoming demands on my time that I will have to put all of my effort and focus into.

I miss spending time with people I can have deep conversations with, that aren't part of a familial or mentoring relationship. I miss quiet time. I miss being outside when things are growing (winter is really starting to drag at me).

I'm feeling old. My youngest son has just turned 18 years of age. My only niece has just turned 5 months. I have had several discussions with my friends about menopause this week alone!

I want... a hug, to have at least 1 belly laugh everyday, to have a daily quiet/alone time, to be able to relax and just be.

Getting Ready for the Weekend

Nothing like running around doing chores before going away for a few days. It may have started out as a relaxing weekend for 2, but it has evolved into a power shopping rip for 4 with a birthday party thrown in.  I'm sure it will be a good weekend. I just wish we had a little time to relax or do a museum visit.
Oh yeah, I'd better call my aunt tomorrow to see if we can do lunch while we're there too.

Better than I could say it

I love it when I run across a blog post, news article or some such that says what I'm thinking in a more articulate way.

Jeff Sabo, over at Just a Bald Man, has an excellent post on video games and their positive values. Now I have a great link that shows I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE who thinks this way. Thanks Justin for passing this on.

JP's post over at 8BitLibrary.com  on what types of media belong in a library came on the heels of a discussion in our library on this very topic.Why do we think storytelling in certain forms is more appropriate for a library? Is it a residual effect of the libraries as fortresses of literature mind set?

Too many things lately have me shaking my head asking "what are people so afraid of?"

The Reading List

Through out the week as I check my RSS feeds, Twitter and travel down various internet paths I build a reading list for Sunday (happens to be my "day off", you know other than the laundry, dishes, cleaning etc.) These links are for things I didn't get a chance to check out, things I want to read/see again, or things that link to other things I think might be of interest. I've noticed that this list is growing longer and longer as the weeks go by. So long in fact that I don't think I'll have time to go through all of this week's list.
Which makes me ask how can anyone possibly think using computers and the internet means you read less?